I has been over a year since I started this experiment, and I have not followed it nearly as planned. I have, however, fallen asleep to the hypnosis video some 30-40 times over the last year, but without logging my experiences on an ongoing basis.
It is time now to write down some surprising results.
I have not experienced any increased urge to dress like a woman as I had expected to, but I have gotten a huge surprise: I am increasingly fantasizing about giving blow jobs!
I have never been bi-curious, but have always been submissive in a servile way (not masochist), and given and fantasized about cunnilingus, mani-pedis etc. Gradually over this last year, I started dreaming about being "forced" by a Domme to suck off one of her subs, and eventually now I am fantasizing about serving homosexual male couples (anal+oral).
I'm not sure if this video is turning me gay, or if I am still just turned on by being servile, but this turn from having no interest in homosexual encounters whatsoever to dreaming about serving blow jobs at gay parties in only a year, is a huge surprise.
I have no idea if this can be explained by the video (I still have not watched it awake), but thought this is a significant change to document.
I will keep playing the video at bedtime occasionally and see if anything else changes.
