Tuesday, November 22, 2016

November 22, 2016: Starting Up Again


I started again with Annabel Grace's feminization videos on November 20, two days ago. After the second night, this morning, I awoke after strange dreams involving me running naked with a lady chasing another naked man. Also, I have not been able to forget Annabel Grace's face and voice for a second all day today, and am eager to go to bed again. However, I must make sure I am tired enough to fall asleep quickly so I don't listen to her voice in a conscious state.


May of 2016: First Beginnings


I started listening to the playlist in May of 2016 for about a week, just for the fun of it, and didn't have any plans other that to see what happened. After about a week of listening every night, I notice that I enjoyed shaving my whole body, chest, armpits, pubes and all, except facial hair. I did this a few days in a row, and gave me a strange, sensuous, erotic feeling, to touch my smooth scrotum, and stroke my hands over my stomach and chest. 

That's as far as I came in May before one of life's small dramas hit, and I was otherwise occupied for a few months.

Description of the Experiment 

This is an informal, one-man quest to find an answer to the following question:

          Can hypnosis give me a whole new fetish? 

I have been interested in hypnosis for decades, and having some Femdom kinks, I'm obviously also interested in Femdom hypnosis of various kinds. After listening to a large number of hypnosis videos on YouTube that only annoyed me, I came across the videos of the stunning Goddess Annabel Grace, a.k.a. Annabel Fatale. 

Having listened to many of her teasers for kinks that I am into, such as submission and findom, it struck me that these hypnosis didn't really need to work on me, since I was already in that mindset. What happened if I listened to hypnosis videos for a fetish that did not interest me at all?

Feminization is such a fetish. Feminization, and gay sex, too, while I absolutely accept this for other people on an intellectual level, emotionally I am struggling greatly with these, and feel icky inside watching videos of these sorts. 

So I decided to put to the test those feminization videos produced by Annabel Grace that are available here at YouTube. I have never listened to or watched these videos while awake, so I don't know any of the specifics. 

My Approach

Every night (as far as possible) I start the below playlist at bedtime. I will make sure to be extra tired to make sure I always fall asleep during the countdown of the first video (yes I listened to the first minute or so to make sure there was an induction period).


The End

I don't really know when to end this experiment. I suppose I will end when either:

(1) I get tired of it
(2) If I haven't noticed any effect for a couple of weeks
(3) If I get too scared of the outcomes