I has been over a year since I started this experiment, and I have not followed it nearly as planned. I have, however, fallen asleep to the hypnosis video some 30-40 times over the last year, but without logging my experiences on an ongoing basis.
It is time now to write down some surprising results.
I have not experienced any increased urge to dress like a woman as I had expected to, but I have gotten a huge surprise: I am increasingly fantasizing about giving blow jobs!
I have never been bi-curious, but have always been submissive in a servile way (not masochist), and given and fantasized about cunnilingus, mani-pedis etc. Gradually over this last year, I started dreaming about being "forced" by a Domme to suck off one of her subs, and eventually now I am fantasizing about serving homosexual male couples (anal+oral).
I'm not sure if this video is turning me gay, or if I am still just turned on by being servile, but this turn from having no interest in homosexual encounters whatsoever to dreaming about serving blow jobs at gay parties in only a year, is a huge surprise.
I have no idea if this can be explained by the video (I still have not watched it awake), but thought this is a significant change to document.
I will keep playing the video at bedtime occasionally and see if anything else changes.
Friday, April 6, 2018
Tuesday, November 22, 2016
November 22, 2016: Starting Up Again
I started again with Annabel Grace's feminization videos on November 20, two days ago. After the second night, this morning, I awoke after strange dreams involving me running naked with a lady chasing another naked man. Also, I have not been able to forget Annabel Grace's face and voice for a second all day today, and am eager to go to bed again. However, I must make sure I am tired enough to fall asleep quickly so I don't listen to her voice in a conscious state.
May of 2016: First Beginnings
I started listening to the playlist in May of 2016 for about a week, just for the fun of it, and didn't have any plans other that to see what happened. After about a week of listening every night, I notice that I enjoyed shaving my whole body, chest, armpits, pubes and all, except facial hair. I did this a few days in a row, and gave me a strange, sensuous, erotic feeling, to touch my smooth scrotum, and stroke my hands over my stomach and chest.
That's as far as I came in May before one of life's small dramas hit, and I was otherwise occupied for a few months.
Description of the Experiment
This is an informal, one-man quest to find an answer to the following question:
Can hypnosis give me a whole new fetish?
I have been interested in hypnosis for decades, and having some Femdom kinks, I'm obviously also interested in Femdom hypnosis of various kinds. After listening to a large number of hypnosis videos on YouTube that only annoyed me, I came across the videos of the stunning Goddess Annabel Grace, a.k.a. Annabel Fatale.
Having listened to many of her teasers for kinks that I am into, such as submission and findom, it struck me that these hypnosis didn't really need to work on me, since I was already in that mindset. What happened if I listened to hypnosis videos for a fetish that did not interest me at all?
Feminization is such a fetish. Feminization, and gay sex, too, while I absolutely accept this for other people on an intellectual level, emotionally I am struggling greatly with these, and feel icky inside watching videos of these sorts.
So I decided to put to the test those feminization videos produced by Annabel Grace that are available here at YouTube. I have never listened to or watched these videos while awake, so I don't know any of the specifics.
My Approach
Every night (as far as possible) I start the below playlist at bedtime. I will make sure to be extra tired to make sure I always fall asleep during the countdown of the first video (yes I listened to the first minute or so to make sure there was an induction period).
Playlist
1. FREE FULL FEMINIZATION - SISSIFICATION HYPNOSIS Become Female 2. Love Thy Goddess 4 - The Trigger File
3. Free Christmas Mind Control Hypnosis
4. Femdom Hypnosis Become More Submissive AnnabelFatale.com
5. Love Thy Goddess 1 Trigger file REMADE! (Also triggers 'Become more submissive'
The End
I don't really know when to end this experiment. I suppose I will end when either:
(1) I get tired of it
(2) If I haven't noticed any effect for a couple of weeks
(3) If I get too scared of the outcomes
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